One more time.
Posted by uthostageFeb 25
The cubicle walls are bare. All the cabinets and drawers are empty. Almost. The write board is completely white, except for the lone Café Rio magnet in the corner. The name tag I created is the only thing left to prove I was once there. But it won’t be there much longer.
I say goodbye to the head of Accounting, thanking her again for lunch today. The head of our corporate Finance Department wishes me luck in my future endeavors. He really doesn’t know me. But I accept his good wishes. What else can I do?
Heading down the stairs, I feel the tears wanting to come. But I hold them back. Not today. I will not let my emotions…well, you know.
I remember how earlier today my boss refused to talk about tomorrow being my last day. I will miss her. I know she will miss me. I think she feels badly that she is now staying on another month. A recent change. I don’t blame her. I feel so grateful to have met her and gotten to know her. It is sad that she will be there alone now. I will miss her.
I walk out the door and get in my car. I only have to do this one more time. Tomorrow.
My last day.
I know it will be hard. Very hard. I don’t want to say goodbye. I work with some great people. I am forever changed by having them in my life. I refuse to let them walk out of my life when I walk out the door for the last time. I think it will be slightly easier knowing I will meet some of them later for drinks.
And I WILL drink.
I back my car out and leave the parking lot.
One more time.
Tomorrow.




7 comments
Comment by Susan Kishner on February 25, 2010 at 10:27 pm
I finally decided to write a comment on your blog. I just wanted to say good job. I really enjoy reading your posts.
Comment by nic @mybottlesup on March 1, 2010 at 6:26 pm
cheers baby!
uthostage Reply:
March 2nd, 2010 at 5:35 pm
Thanks hun! *clink*
Comment by Emma on March 2, 2010 at 1:59 pm
Hey hope the last day all went well and you are doing ok x
uthostage Reply:
March 2nd, 2010 at 5:40 pm
Thx. My last day actually was ok. I didn’t make it out dry-eyed, but I managed not to get too weepy. (hee hee)
Comment by Michele on March 2, 2010 at 4:53 pm
I drank heavily for you in celebration of all that is freedom and change in your life. I hope it helped you because I was paying for it BIGTIME all day on Saturday. Hangovers suck….how come shots are so awesome??
uthostage Reply:
March 2nd, 2010 at 5:45 pm
I knew you were totally with me in spirit. About the shots… my guess is they have to be good otherwise the hangovers just wouldn’t be worth it, right? ROFL
Being downtown Friday I couldn’t get too hammered cuz I had to drive. But the girls took care of that for me. One of them stuck my keys in someone else’s purse (on accident…at least I hope), so I had more time to sober up before driving home. And then I crashed on the couch. I’m a worthless drunk.